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hi-im 19 days off the weed after smoking for 33 years-tobacco too-im so ashamed iv wasted all this time battling those who love me-and befriending those who lost theyre hearts to cannabis the same as me-this truly is the most evil of drugs-WHY?- because its regarded as cool,harmless,beneficial?-t-shirts, badges,"culture"- its all a big lie-its the thief with a smile.Cannabis smokers are betrayers of kindness- the lost boys and girls who stayed in theyre rooms -or -like me -the comatose sleepwalkers who settled for subsistance living and put theyre ambitions in a drawyer-now i have nightmares-my only usefullness now is as a warning,a signpost-a skull in the desert-i would cry-but i have been robbed of that emotion too - i am already a ghost | |
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You arn't a ghost - You've made a step already mate. 19 days is good. 2 off 3 weeks, soon its a month... Concentrate on the positives of the fact that you have given up. Do these things: Focus on why you have decided to stop every time you have a crave. Start doing some exercise - even if it's 50 press-ups in the morning or a short run. Pick one of those ambitions and start to investigate - even if it's just a little one - you have to start somewhere. Do something for something for someone else. Stop focusing on the negative - start thnking about the positive stuff that is going to come because you are no longer smoking that stupid effing weed!! All the best mate. | |
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thanx for that-the worst thing is that i no longer associate with my toking pals- get lonely and have a lot of time- i hope it gets better-my whole scene was tokers - most used phrase was "anything about?" or "its got a tinge but it gets you stoned"- dont miss that bullshit-thnx again | |
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Hello 32 years up in smoke, guess what so am I, you may be in Scotland and me in Australia and I feel exactly as you do, though I am not in the scene, most of my friends haven't smoked for years, I was determined to keep smoking. I do have friends but over time I have isolated myself from them. Locked myself away, worked and smoked, worked and smoked. My husband doesn't smoke or drink but his father smokes, he is now well in his 60's and off his trolley, very unhappy man, bitter man. I don't want to end up like him. Another friend of mine who is also in his 60's and smoked his entire life, I have known him for 12 years and have seen him totally withdraw now, virtually never leaves his house and if he does suffers really badly from anxiety. I have watched him deteriate and I also don't want to end up like him. I too feel I have wasted my life even though I have travelled, been a top manager for the company I worked for, achieved the highest sales consistantly for years, now I don't work and its because of the pot. I am very lucky to have a non judgemental husband who is supporting me through this nightmare I have to find my way out of . NO MORE POT has to be the answer. I really wish you success and if you can do it so can I. Best of luck to you. | |
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