Benefits of quitting cannabis

Hello everyone.

I'm sure you'll understand that I mean this in the nicest possible way, but I was hoping not to be seeing you guys again!

Unfortunately, after doing really well for around 6 weeks, I stupidly started smoking again.  I could name all sorts of excuses.. I had plenty at the time, but really I'm just very disappointed with myself..

It was the "just one" the wouldn't hurt, that got me.  Well, I guess at least I know that now.

Soo, I'm here to quit again.  In may ways the situation ought to be more conducive this time.  I've recent experience of that "clear-head" feeling, and I know how good it feels..  I've also worked through a lot of the emotional stuff that came up last time, and I'm ready for more if it comes.... and, unlike before, I'm so busy on projects etc, that really I don't have time to smoke, let alone get wrecked..

My quit day will be either friday this week, or monday.  That'll give me time to get certain stress causing life clutter out of the way.. stuff that I know jangled me last time I quit.

So.. Grandma... Thank you for dragging me back to this forum..   Gotta dash for now but I'll be checking in every day now...

Oh, and I nearly forgot.   Tune of the day, a bit of Hip Hop,.. Saul Williams, my favourite poet, with "Talk To Strangers" .

YouTube - 01 - Saul Williams - Talk To Strangers

There's nothing more powerful than an idea who's time has come.

My god.. was it really a whole month since I posted my last message here?   That's not good.

But, anyway.... . it's time.

Day 1.  Lunchtime.   Hopefully it will be a case of carrying on where I left off as DoneForever experienced. 

Either way, I need to do this. My songwriting course is going well but I've been feeling the weed holding me back mentally and lyrically... Damn stuff.

I'll update later tonight.

well.. end of day one. feeling ok, though smoked a few too many cigs.  oh well.

anyway.. tune(s) for the day... presenting the utterly amazing DubFX..

YouTube - Dub FX 10/10/2008 'Step on my Trip'

YouTube - Dub FX 18/04/2009 'Flow' feat. Woodnote

enjoy

well.. end of day 2... sort of.  feeling a bit jangled though partly because little production music job I though I had 'til next week to do, actually needs to be done by tomorrow, though the client only saw fit to inform me of this a few hours ago..  it's a horrible fiddly little job..  If I was smoking I'd just roll one (or two, or three or four), and get on with it, but in my detoxing state of mind I'm really having trouble staying focused..  it's going to be a long night...  Luckily I can't get some now even if I wanted to, so I'll just have to struggle through... it's going to be a long night.. oh well...

3:15 am.. job done.  at last.  see y'all in day 3  

wow.. end of day 4 already..

this is definitely easier the second time round.  I was pretty emotional yesterday, but today's been great.. partly because I've been at college all day (socialising helps a lot).

The quick wit is coming back too..

Now, I'd better go and start preparing dinner. I have company tonight.. and told her I could cook vegetarian.. which in fact I've never really tried so I'm hoping I can follow the recipe OK.  

The Vegetarian Society - Buried Treasure - potato and leek roulade with marmelade sauce

Maybe a bit ambitious for a first time? Oh well.. beautiful girls have that effect on me.

End of day 5 or is it 6? I'm losing count already... emotionally I've been a bit up and down today. Not really inspired musically yet.. I do need to get a song written and recorded, with full vocal arrangement and production in the next two weeks though for my course, so I hope I get get it together soon.

Need to get some sleep now after a late one last night but before I go, a couple of tracks by an Estonian artist I was introduced to last night.. Sort of a cross between Bjork and Lady Gaga...

very cool... sweet, lovable and creepy at the same time!

YouTube - Kerli - Creepshow Music Video

YouTube - Kerli - Walking On Air

and how many artist would do this?  God bless her..

YouTube - Kerli Sings "Creationist" For A Sick Fan

Like I say.. I'm pretty emotional right now, but still.. I'm welling up!

Ok I'm confused.. I thought it was day7 for me today, but looking at the date, it's only day 5 or possibly 6.  I'm going off the dates of posts in this forum, but they're all US time, and since I tend to post around midnight in the UK.. well.. lots of room for confusion..

It does illustrate though something I noticed last time I quit.. namely how SLOW time goes by when I'm not stoned. A month as a smoker can be gone before you know it.. but sober, I seem to be able to fit so much more into the day...

I need to quit the cigs again.. damn these things are horrible and I'm smoking far too many, but one thing at a time I guess.  I think I tried to bite off too much last time, particularly when I tried to go to the gym EVERY day..  this time I'm going to go easier on myself...

One step at a time..

It's sad to see that I'm the only one posting right now.. but I do realise it's not nice to come here whilst still smoking... at least I found that.. it just brought back feelings of guilt, and letting myself down.. so if that sounds like you, I know what you're going through, and understand.  

We have to do these things in our own time... 

Just know that I'm thinking of you all.

Hey pete 

well congrats on giving up again and getting back on that horse. 

I have had a few attemts at giving up and have found it a bit of a struggle at times but i have recently had no choice but to go off it for 2 months then 3 weeks as family had come to visit me for a while diddon find that to hard so ive decided to give it up completely and see how it goes i hope i can do it !. 

good luck 

Moe

Thank you Moe for you support

and good on you for making the decision to quit permanently yourself!  I forced abstinence can be harder I've found, but I guess it's a good time to kickstart the quit.. how are you finding it?

I'm on day 7 I think now, and loving my new found hobby of cooking.. Got a pot of braised pork in tomato and  fennel sauce bubbling away right now... it's amazing the things you can do with all that extra time on my hands!

in fact, the buzzer just went off, so I'd better go and dish up... hungry flatmates waiting!

1 - Leek and Potato Roulade

2. Lamb Palava

3. Braised Pork in tomato, lemon and fennel sauce.

I'm enjoying this.

Hey Buddy.

Wow that food looks awesom my quit date is the 28th so i am looking forward to it i know i can do this and i know the benifts of doing this. I am living in Newzealand at the minute but from Ireland, my family paid for me to come out here to clean up as i was drinkin heavly and doing class A's alot aswell so was for the best.

Having a great time out here but couldent help but find a dealer pretty much as soon as i got out, ive cut out all other drugs and drink at the moment been clean off them about 4 Months so that was no problem just getting over this final barrier. 

Thanks for the support these forums are pretty good way to get help with this sort of thing. Keep up the good work Pete. 

Moe 

Hey Buddy.

Wow that food looks awesom my quit date is the 28th so i am looking forward to it i know i can do this and i know the benifts of doing this. I am living in Newzealand at the minute but from Ireland, my family paid for me to come out here to clean up as i was drinkin heavly and doing class A's alot aswell so was for the best.

Having a great time out here but couldent help but find a dealer pretty much as soon as i got out, ive cut out all other drugs and drink at the moment been clean off them about 4 Months so that was no problem just getting over this final barrier. 

Thanks for the support these forums are pretty good way to get help with this sort of thing. Keep up the good work Pete. 

Moe 

ah.. lovely place new zealand... I was there for a weekend once.. oddly enough during a quit attempt a few years back.  I ended up being invited to a weed-harvesting party and it felt really odd being the only one there who wasn't smoking!

the main thing I remember was the terrifying descent into Wellington..apparently it's famous for it.. huge turbulence...something to do with the weather patterns around the airport, not helped by the short runway and very scary looking rocks just before the runway threshold!!

I also like the way they honk their horns at each other going through tunnels.. just for the fun of it!   I must go back sometime....

Good luck with your quit.. you're probably doing the right thing setting the date and building up to it... Honestly, once you're passed the first few days, the cravings really do go away.. just look out for the "gee that was easy, maybe I can smoke occasionally" feelings starting around day 9... and the major emotional ups and downs... they're the worst in fact... I wasn't prepared for them first time round... so when they happen, remind yourself it's all part of the process..

Hey mate. 

yea New Zealand is awesome loving out here, amazing a weed harvesting party sounds like fun but not so much if your trying to give up!. 

yea i know that feeling where ye think I should be ok being a casual smoker but i just have to accept the fact that casual smoking is not a thing for me. its all or nothing unfortunatly. 

Anyways dude thanks for talking to me its good to be able to talk this out with someone. keep up the good work and ill be posting more after the quit date!. 

Moe. 

Hi moe ,

Looking forward to having you on the wagon .    Pete- you are quite the chef !

Warn wishes to everyone

CAT