Benefits of quitting cannabis

Well , I am back to post , and I am posting in the success area, that's not to say I have got complacent , I still feel as addicted as I did a few weeks ago , but I do consider things more successful than they were back then .

So far I have stayed clean ..... 2 months a week and 3 days . The past couple of weeks have been hard, and cannabis has been on my mind a lot !  Seems more so than weeks 3-4 .

I am still craving to smoke really badly , and now I seem to spend more time rationalising why it would be ok , then I did a few weeks ago , when I was full speed ahead on the detox  .

I really miss weed, and I really miss being stoned.  I really have started to appreciate the positives, but in absolute honesty ... they are not yet out weighing the negatives .

I get really grumpy , depressed, find life hard to deal with , and spend too much time thinking about smoking weed .  

The time I feel the best , and glad that I have not relapsed is the first hour of waking up , this is usually short lived , but it is a few great moments. Waking up with a clear ( ish ) head , and not feeling that tired that makes you feel you should be sleeping in a morgue makes me feel relieved that I've not started smoking and put it back in my system , however come the evening, I'm still realllllly gagging for one.

I'm also still suffering nightsweats ,which to me is a sign I'm still physically addicted .   Sleeping however isn't a problem anymore, and I feel I'm sleeping better now than I ever did as a stoner.

Anyway , Grandma, James, Pete  , and everyone else who continues to keep this place from dying on it's arse... thankyou .  I couldn't have done this without you guys , and although I'm quiet these days , your posts continue to inspire me , and keep me on the straight and narrow .

I find I can only post when my resolve is strong , or else I find myself talking more and more about weed, and then I find the time to follow ten times more difficult .

Xmas is going to be hard , but here's wishing you all a great one , I will be round to say merry xmas :-)

Cat

Hi Cat,

I'm glad to hear things are going OK and you're sticking with it despite your cravings.  I feel a bit guilty to have not been postings when things are going ok, but coming back to complain when I briefly falter, but I can relate to what you say about only posting when the resolve is strong.

I it'll be good if we could both remind ourselves from time to time of why we quit, that it does nothing good, that life is better without it.

James