Benefits of quitting cannabis

Having been scourin the blogs Ive come across many reasons for wanting to break free of the weed. here are mine. And they ain't pretty.

Im sick of feeling ashamed of myself. I hate the things i've been doing. Im sick of being a non-person. I dont pay bills properly. I only know smokers and (this is uncomfortable to type)I have become either suspicious or fearful of meeting new non smokers. What do they talk about without a j on the go?. Will i seem incredibly dull to them.? hows that for honesty.

The social drug has essentially stopped my social life in its tracks. I want to have a proper haircut but cant spend £40 weed money on something like my hair.  As it actually seems a waste. I have very few possessions tht ive paid for (again wasting weed money.)I last bought new clothes in Feb it was a t-shirt. 

 My life has been a sorry waste for so long Im bored rigid by it. Bored of waking up and getting stoned all day. Embarrassed by who I now am.

For me the change has been gradual. The sense of uneasiness has steadily grown for the last year or so. But now my excuses and manana mania(il start 2morro honest!) have run dry.

So Im quitting. 

I must say i feel quite good having got all that out. and now its forever preserved so if I falter I can come back to it.

I've found it so difficult to be truly honest to myself about how this drug has damaged my life.  I applaud your honesty.  It seems to me that recognising all those negative things is the first step towards recovery.

Don't quit quitting.

Great thread Illma , thankyou for starting such an inspiring contribution.

Good luck with your quit

Bruno

Givingupcannabis.com

I have, after a day of much reduced smoking. Noticed more 'Bads' from my use.  My skin has a grey hue to it. I am spotty. But due to being stoned and 'chilled out' I have picked the spots all over my body and now have scabby spots and lil scars (mmm yummy!). My teeth are vile. My personal hygiene has unfortunatly been a big victim of my use. I stopped brushing my teeth dailly a while back. I have 3 broken teeth.  Which I have not had treated in over 4 years. I always meant to get them seen. Just never got round to it.

my breath this morning was foul. The weed stays on your breath. I also had a thick coating on my tongue. Another thing I was kinda aware of but never saw it in gross technicolour before. Again cuz I would be stoned before getting out of bed.  The first thing I did every morning is light a doobie. I am aware of the musty weed smell all over my bedsit. (bedsit I had no intention of staying in 5 years ago but never got round to doing anything about). My bed smells my carpet smells even my dog smells of musty old weed. How did I ever think that other people couldn't smell this?.  I shudder to think of how I smelt to the neighbours shop keepers etc.

My dog this morning and yesterday morning has been taken for a walk. Not just let out into the garden while I smoke and drink tea.  That does not feel good. I hadn't even thought I might be neglecting my dogs needs. Of course I was.  Shes always fed. But proper outside fun has been in low supply for as long as she has been with me.  She got walked from my house to the supply every day. And to my bfs. But we have only been to the park for a play twice. How crap is that?

I have also not been taking care of my feet. they are grey with inches of dead skin on them as i was always too stoned to care. The reality of my use of this 'social weed' has left me looking and smelling like a hermit. I really hope someone else adds to this topic soon. I cant be the only grimy weeder!

I'm quitting because I'm tired of hating myself. 

I've had enough of feeling ashamed...

...Ashamed that I've got real responsibilities which I'm not taking seriously - in my job the decisions I take daily can lead to others losing thier jobs.  I'm making these decisions while stoned then rocking up in the office and can't look people in the eye.

...Ashamed that I don't want to see my family or visit friends at the weekend as it means I have to stop smoking.

...Ashamed that I've dragged my wife down into the addiction with me.  She used to be a social smoker and is now as hooked as me.

I want to take the rough with the smooth and feel alive.

then give it a shot man. it ain't easy but it ain't impossible as well. That's 

like the only sentence we all need to hear. Nothing is easy. Taking a holy crap

ain't easy you gotta push it sometimes like hell, but man we know we have to do it

so we do it. 

Thanks Bob - I'm feeling so much better now that I was when I posted that.  I don't want to forget how I felt as I think it's important so as you don't slip back.  Thanks for the kind words...